It's been almost three years, but I still feel like I should be able to pick up the phone and call you...
"Johnson's Pool Room, Eight ball speaking..."
Today is just one of those days I would like to talk to you. Well, yesterday, carried over to today. I just want to hear your voice. Sure, I can imagine the things you'd say, but I'd like to hear you say them, not me imagine you saying them. I'd like to hold your bony, clammy hands, and rest my head on your bony shoulder. I just miss you today.
Your grandkids are crazy. Well, except Jonah. You'd get a kick out of Jonah, and the silly faces he makes, and how he crawls so funny, kind of like Trevan did. Well, I guess you probably can see him from where you are, but I'd like to see your face while watching him. It's sad you aren't here to love on him. He's so loveable.... Can you believe he has only peed on us twice when changing his diaper? Remember, you said you'd never been peed on as much as you were by Trevan? Oh, mom, I am so mad at Trevan. The maddest I have ever, ever been at him. In your words, "I'm going to give him back to the Indians!" When was the maddest you ever got at one of us? How long did it take you to get over it?
I thought of you today when I used a coupon to buy some Neutrogena hand lotion. I remember you always seemed to have a coupon to buy that. It was even super double coupons today, you'd be so proud...
In December, I made a new bread pudding recipe that I know you would have loved. John sent me these cookies for Valentine's Day, you would have loved those too.
You should have seen Mallary in the salon, getting her hair cut yesterday. She sat perfectly still for almost an hour! She loved it. It was so cute. You would have gotten a kick out of that too. On Sunday, John was brushing her hair, and she was screaming because she said it hurt, and he said to me, "Now I know why your mom cut your hair off when you were little." You would have laughed.
I miss our daily chit chats about nothing.
I can't believe it's been almost three years...
I wish you were here. Or there. Or somewhere I could hear your voice.
Love you,
Holly
5 comments:
Oh Holly... this literally brought me to tears. I'm so sorry you are having a rough day and I'm sorry you are missing your mom. Is there something I can do? Do you need a great big hug? I can come over after work and give you a hug before Meg goes to horseback.
I can't imagine what you are going through, but please know that I am here for you. It doesn't matter what time of the day or night it is, you know where to find me or how to get ahold of me.
I know you're not a mushy person, but just know that we love you!
I know that feeling. It will get better! As I wipe the snot off my face! :)
I would come to your house and give you a big squeeze right now if I could.
thanks guys.
Girl you always make me cry and cry and cry. Hope you are having a better day today. :)
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