Trust

When John and I went to bed last night (technically morning), the topic of conversation was trust. I layed there thinking about it, and then realized there is only one person on this earth I trust absolutely, completely, more than any other person in this world, maybe even more than John. Sure, there are lots of close, very close, seconds. But, this person earns the blue ribbon.

I thought a lot about it, I really did. I came up with a list of criteria this person met to make me think such a thing about them:

1. You never hear this person talk about someone else in a bad way. They don't complain about other people, make fun of them, say unkind things about them, or make judgemental comments regarding them. (There was one time where this person was technically making fun of people, but not technically talking about them, if that makes sense. Probably not. Also, this person is not exempt from making an occasional eye roll, but that eye roll is never put into words.) I figure, since I know they don't do that about other people, they aren't doing it about me behind my back.

2. I know I could tell this person anything, and if I asked this person not to tell, they would take what I said to their grave with them. They wouldn't tell their spouse, they wouldn't hint around or leak out that they know something that I told them in private. It would never leave their lips. And, honestly, even if I asked this person not to tell, they probably wouldn't discuss it either. I've never heard that person betray a confidential item. They would err on the extremely safe side just to make sure that didn't happen.

3. Even though I know this person probably thinks I'm pretty crazy most of the time, and disagrees with what I say and do sometimes, they wouldn't engage in a conversation talking about those things about me. I know my name is safe with that person.

4. I would never question their honesty. I know they have the very highest of integrity.

5. I know if they were to tell me they were going to do something, I know they would make every effort to do it.

Now, I'm not saying this person is perfect. I'm sure they've had to have done some of these things, but I am just not aware of any of those circumstances - and I've known this person a pretty long time... I think this person would be pretty embarrassed if I gave a name, so, I've elected not to put it, but I'll be telling them that this post is about them. I just think for someone to be like this is so honorable.

But, you know what I took away from this thought session, other than thinking that this person is pretty awesome? I was disappointed with myself; that I didn't meet all of that criteria. I mean, I'm very honest, and I try my hardest if I say I'm going to do something, to make sure I do it, and I can also keep secret, but really, my report card based on that criteria would not show an A+.

I can, and should be, so much better...

I'll be working on it.